It's 3 am, some country song is playing in the background (it's The Once and Future Carpenter by The Avett Brothers), and my proudly-bought 20-dollar Ikea night light just sets the mood for musings.
I wonder what would have happened if I had
been born the eldest son.
sucked so badly in school.
been good at sports.
picked up the guitar in junior high.
not gotten the scholarship.
stayed on and gone to senior high.
sucked so badly that I was sent home.
actually made it to the drama auditions.
failed the dance auditions.
not moved to another junior college.
hated dance.
failed my law school dream.
been the badass kid in the family.
said yes.
stayed religious.
been simply mediocre.
